If you have read any of my previous posts, then you know more about the tribulations I have experienced than most people will ever know. I would be lying if I said I never thought “why me?”

My path hasn’t always been a happily ever after story, but rather a constant learning. I call it learning rather than challenging because I truly believe that that’s the purpose for it all.

I believe my core that it all happens to really teach me. I have indeed learned a lot. I have learned how tough it can be as a kid in this world, without a solid family unit. I have learned that relationships are temporary when you surround yourself with people that don’t have love in their hearts.

I have come to learn that life doesn’t happen to you, you have to make it happen. I don’t wait for someone else to experience everything this world has to offer. I don’t sit at home waiting on someone to join my life to travel, explore, live concerts or anything else.

I am constantly looking for ways to improve my healthy habits, my knowledge, and my relationships with my kids and grandkids. I am breaking generational habits, decisions, goals and knowledge about many topics.

Having opened my mind to understanding religion, education, politics and history more deeply has taken me down many roads. In all my research, I have become more interconnected with my true self. I am not done by any means, but I am feeling more completeness as I follow my own beliefs.

Not the beliefs of family, traditions, or governed institutions. Instead, I am understanding my core belief of everything. My truest relationship as self with Christ.

As I have taken myself down these many paths and directions of research…I have enlightened spiritual experiences. My dreams have become more vivid and there’s an internal peace like never before.

I am happy, more genuine, compassionate, loving and kind than ever before. I am seeing things in a different light and grateful for the insight.

These feelings didn’t come easily, they came with honesty with myself, forgiveness to everyone that ever hurt me and most of all with myself. I let go of the guilt or shame I felt for not living the “perfect life”.

I now look internally to find the peace and love needed. When I talk or meet new people, I treat them with complete love and kindness. If they choose not to mirror the same, then I wish them well and let them go without any sort of ugliness.

As we know, everyone is on their own journey. Some will appreciate my new perspective on life and others will see it as crazy or uncomfortable to be around.

I have every intention of writing more about my journey, but I am so involved in the research that I rarely make time to post these days. I have a few drafts I am working on and hope to be more disciplined in the near future!

~Many Blessings