Just my thoughts for today…

So while I was scrolling on social media, I came across a podcaster that made such an impactful statement that it brought me to tears. I won’t be able to say it verbatim but I will summarize…You are the person that would have protected the child version of you. You have grown into the person that would have protected you and kept you safe. The child version of you would have wanted to sit next to you and would have loved you. You are the hero of that child and you should be proud of yourself. Sit with that knowledge and accept it. You are the Hero of you.

I am not sure what this means to anyone else, but it was quite powerful for me. I certainly try not to let my childhood or past trauma drive my daily life, but I think there’s a part of me that is always worried about the impacts of those times of my life. I know the sayings of what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, which is just ridiculous in so many ways. When you live through these situations, the strength isn’t what you want. You want love and safety, kindness and loyalty.

In fact, as a strong and very independent woman, the only thing I want is to be weak with the right people and most especially in my next serious relationship. I don’t want to be in another relationship with a weak man. I want a man of God, a leader, a protector and kind, gentle man. I don’t want people in my world that I can’t trust to be vulnerable with or share my life experiences without judgment.

What the statement made me realize is that I am not that little girl or traumatized woman anymore. Through the past couple of years, I have become isolated by God to find my truest love for Him and myself. When I look in the mirror, I don’t see a broken woman. I see a woman that has become my own Hero. And for that, I am very proud of all that I have overcome.

With God’s grace and mercy, He is showing my daily who I have become and how much He loves me. I will continue on my current path of prayer, strength with knowledge, growth through wisdom and most of all God’s love. I am so grateful to God for showing me this message today.

~Many Blessings